2:30 AM

I don't know how to describe October in one word. Too many chains of events took place. Interesting, wreckful and strange events. And October is finishing. In 2 days.

Since I last wrote, I have moved house. I am no longer living in the little serene Leonie Hill road. I have moved downhill to Kellock Road. Moving out was a tumultous process, with my flat being a battleground for my Mom and Dad. I kept wanting to sit on the fence, and live in my own little happy bubble. But then either I keep getting forced to join one of the sides or one of them keeps bursting my bubble. Home did no longer feel like home, and the playground downstairs felt much more peaceful and calm. It is tragic that the last few days in Leonie Hill was spent in such a horrendous way, but at least I do have the little memories to keep (in my head and in the photos I took). I do miss how I could conveniently take 90% of the bus home. I do miss how it takes only 7 minutes to walk to Takashimaya. I do miss window shopping on my way home (though when I was still living in Leonie Hill, being in SMU did not really allow me time to do this as much as when I was in secondary school and JC).

I went to Orchard Road for the first time in 2 weeks or so on Saturday, and I experienced multitude of shockness. First, when I was in Wheelock Place, I found out Sakae Sushi has moved (to 2-3 unit awat from its origin), New Urban Male and BYSI has just opened a branch there. Second, I went to Takashimaya, and saw the branded sale was being held. Oh man.. I felt so deprived of Orchard Road. I kind of realised how SMU has kinda taken my social life away. I still don't really have SMU friends to go out with until now :(

I am contented living with my new home, though my room is still rather messy. I believe IKEA will eventually solve it. My mother still complains occasionally, but the rate has decreased exponentially from the moving out days. I do hope my father won't be here when we moved out again next year. I want a calm, peaceful moving out, not a frenetic type of moving out.

I do realise that I have to start getting more patient with my Mom. I don't know why, but I do get irritated when she repeats her question within short period of time... or when she seems to ask a stupid question when she really does not know the answer. Either I am getting impatient from stress and deprived social life, or my mom is getting forgetful. I have to start seeing my mom less as an authoritative figure who knows answers to everything and how to make decisions for home. I have to start seeing her on the eye level of me. The full cycle of life is taking place I supposed, when a child has to take care of his / her old parents. I will not want my children to be impatient or rude with me when I grow old too. At least I will be concerned with my Mom. For my Dad, that would be another consideration.

Speaking of which, a palmreader set up a booth in my school's bazaar last week, and I went to see him. He charged $90 outside, and only $20 in school, and had done consultations for celebs. After queuing for about 30 minutes, it was my turn.

The first thing he said interestingly was, I am aggressive. AGGRESSIVE. Huh? I am aggressive?
Then he said I am a tough cookie. Okie that may be true.
Then he said, because of this agressiveness, I tend to drive people close to me away, like my family and friends. In my opinion, family maybe, friends no.
Then he said that one of my parents would die early and that I am not closed to one of them. LOL, I so know which is which.
Then he said I am most likely to marry a foreigner. Singaporean counted as foreigner? O.O
Then he said I can work with foreigners well. So I should work in MNCs. Hmm.
Then he said I will most likely to travel a lot. Which is true.
Then he said I am detail-oriented. Which is true.
Then he said I can be flirtatious and fall in and out of love very fast. INTERESTING.
Then he said I may have problems conceiving a child. So, horny does not mean fertile? O.O
Then he said I may drive away my husband because of my agressive nature. Hmm.
Then he said I should marry when I am 29 or older. OKIES.
Then he said I should invest in stock exchange or real estate. OKIES.
Then he said 2011 will be a success or a bust for me. OH NO.

One important conclusion: somehow I must tone down my aggressive nature! Patience is the key.

I want to write some more, but I guess this is long enough for an entry. My October recount is not finished yet.

Worst Thus Far

Today I did something that had been the worst thus far in my academic life. Lol it may not be as bad as you think it is, but.. I was late for my mid term exam for 30 minutes! I thought that it would start at 230 pm.. and when I arrived about 5 mins earlier I wondered how come everyone was already doing the paper. Then I asked the prof what time the exam started, and he said "200 pm". Crikey. My mind was of course in disarray for the first 3 mins, but after that I managed to calm myself down.. and I feel that I will be able to at least pass the paper. But passing is not what I aim for for Statistics T-T Sighhhh. Why do I feel so bad about this exam? It's because it'll take up 30% of my final grade.

This event makes me hate the GPA and grading system. Getting A is so much harder now in Uni. One has to score a bloody 83 to get an A. Like what the heck? From 70 to 83? O_O Maybe this is somewhat God trying to teach me that I have to see pass the grades in university (but that does not mean I have to screw my university academic aspect!). Why can't university be less stressful?

I know I'll have to calm down eventually, since I have to prepare for my second exam tmrw, which will be the last one for now. I am editing photo to calm myself down.

Somehow I'm starting to enjoy more imagining my life after university O_O

October

Wow, week 7 is already here.. and it's already ending! My recess week will be next week, just a one-week holiday. However, it won't really be a holiday for me! My days living in Grangeford Apartment is really numbered, because I'll be moving out of the house to another apartment in River Vallery area in about 7 days time :( :( :( Why must my house be en-bloc-ed? So my family will be renting the new apartment for the next coming year, and hopefully by then we'll be able to purchase the new house *cross fingers that my father doesn't become stupid and waste or got cheated off the money*

Yes I am hating my father here. He thinks that he can help me and my mom move house. Oh please, him being here makes us more stressful. He thinks that he knows how to pack. He never asks my mom about her stuff and just throw away her stuff. That's why I have started to lock up my room whenever I am out. I don't even really want to talk to him.

There are some CCA activities next week that I want to go for, but with moving house and the high probability of Biennale commitments, I don't think I'll be able to go for some of them. Hmm, I guess the Biennale commitments kind of take up a lot of my time now too (10 hours per week), but I really hope of using it to clear 80 compulsory hours of community service, so that I can write my community service report based on that stint alone (which would mean less confusion compared to writing a report for stints in more than one organisation). This means I would have to do more hours during the holiday, which I don't really mind actually haha.

I want to go see movies! Mama Mia, Vicky Christina Barcelona and Burn After Reading! But so far, I don't really have time, sigh :(

Hopefully my next entry will be a more upbeat one. Haha.